were about 9
a beautiful fear

by Brian Gundersdorf

String arrangement by Valencio Jackson

Conducted by Pat Klink


Nikia Yung Sayre on violin

Stephanie Reissner on violin

Jackie Capecci on viola

Matthew Carroll on ba**

Write it all down

the afternoon beer

the bread and the egg

the tuna I seared

Did I stay up late?

my childhood bedtime

still resonates

in the joints of my spine

the drawings I made

the lunches I paid

and all the things

I didn't do cause I was afraid

grinding my teeth

the doctor says

that's just the way

you deal with your stress

Write it all down

every fear

this is what brought me here

make it all work

the pa**ion the pain

the throwaway lines

and the constant refrain

Write it all down

the sunburn I got

falling asleep

on the slide

at the tot lot

Every grade

the groundwork I laid

my beds never made

I've never prayed

we've all made mistakes

as our strength is tested

some go unnoticed

some get us arrested

when you call home

there's no easy way

it turns out

there are some things you should never say

Write it all down

every fear

this is what brought me here

it isn't all good

it just isn't clear

which ways I should

and shouldn't have steered

so when I'm thirty-five

and I've made a good life

will I lie awake

And if I had gone

to the conservatory

will the lessons I learned

do magic for me?

when I sing this song

would it soar without flaw?

would I find these words?

would that sk** be gone?

There's always a form

a war and a piece

a dominant chord

a tension and a release

Write it all down

every fear

this is what brought me here

now I laugh in the dark

and I own and respect

everything I've survived

in retrospect, we're about 9

and the monsters appear

and we lie awake

with a beautiful fear